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It’s August and feels like Autumn the night air is crisp and demanding of a warm binkie, which  I’m sitting beneath and watching  Tomo, our old and eldering black Lab  fall into a deep sleep burrowed into her bed on the deck under the stars.  I am burrowed too and the air is cool with a hint of Sage and sweet grasses and I think maybe I could just stay here all night.  But then Tomo shivers and I start to shiver and its time to go back inside.  There are stairs she must manage so when its time to go inside its important to give her time to arrive.  To transition from deep canine sleep space to making her legs work space.  I need that time to arrive too.  As I get older it seems I need more time just as Tomo does to re-orient in time and space.  Its a simple thing to do – a simple kindness we both appreciate.

The river that runs through our town, the river that supplies water for living for people downstream has turned diarrhea baby brown and seems to be moving by at a snails pace as if the consistency of the fluid has thickened and become a sludge – a toxic stew the EPA says.  I do not know if it stinks as say coal smoke stinks but I do know that the spill has and will cause much suffering to various life forms like fish and people and trees that grow along the river and that this relatively small spill will continue to spawn environmental health issues for years to come.

Sad to see it happen here but then it’s happening everywhere – its as if the “flesh” of earth herself is developing canker sores, blisters and boils and it’s just starting.  The Preacher man is back working with congregants from all over the states and he says they tell him pretty much the same stuff – “the roads are falling apart, the schools are dangerous, nothing works, industry continues to pollute the air, the water and our land, fracking is fucking both environment and people  and folks are hurting and angry and scared – the government is busted” and so am I.  And I’m feeling a sense of urgency about things needing to be addressed in a hurry.  Like we don’t have time to dilly dally.

Help me!  I do not know if I am delusional and out to lunch so I’m asking for help. It seems obvious to me that the old wisdom teaching: “as above so below” holds true.  The poison we have dumped into our habitats and the subterranean consequences of doing that is reflected and echoed in the violence and near total breakdown of our nations current system of law and justice which sees so much racial hatred, distrust and chaos.  Is it just me?  Can’t we see we can no longer afford to do business as usual….

I read of a very concerned scientist (link to article gone) saying: “a world temperature rise of 4-7 C will kill 90% of all human beings…and that is possible by 2050.”  And here are people pretending to be serious leaders talking seriously about who can be more outrageous than the others while totally oblivious to the castles falling down upon their heads and people screaming – Wake Up!  And as the world turns the civilizations and cultures we’ve  built go spinning down the drain and very few notice but nearly everyone is entertained.  I’m not saying its gloom and doom time but I am saying its time we start talking about realistic, possible, and horrifying scenarios of what may likely be the world our kids will live through if we can not muster the energy necessary to overcome the current gilded cage group.

Kinda makes me wonder what those folks largely responsible for making vast sums of money by polluting, poisoning, stripping, raping, and by any other name “having dominion of the earth,” know that they ain’t telling us little people?  Makes the conspiracy guy inside me think that maybe being in the 1% by any means possible is the smartest play to make but I don’t know that I could sell everyone else down the river just to save my own scrawny ass.  I hope I don’t find out by finding myself in exactly that position…..I hope we don’t find ourselves as a nation and or as a community be faced with finding that out.

Often I do though find myself in a fist clenched angry posture and or in a curled up and grieving posture.  In both, my body is contracted, my mind narrows down into familiar (and often unskillful and old channels) and my thoughts take on a negative energy, tone and theme…..and my soul becomes restless.  There is little peace within, my mind tends to have an anxious quality about it and I find it difficult to concentrate on personal matters when it seems apparent that Gaia is undergoing unprecedented changes at all levels of interdependent and unified networks many of which are as yet unknown to us and at the same time that the ground beneath our feet is falling apart our social order is likewise falling apart and one need look no further than to the recent GOP debate to see that chaos is equally visible in what we once called “civil discourse” and now it’s called one-up-man-ship or in the vernacular:  “being a loser.”

[Pause] Take breath.  Again.   Yes again.   Once more. [Resume play]

I get it intuitively that I can’t be as effective as a citizen of the planet working in whatever capacities may be challenged of me and called forth  from me as long as I’m all and only about the anger – the outrage – the raw sting of brutal injustice and the blind hatred on display in the form of White bred terrorism against People of Color along with the backlash against LGBTQ folk and the worsening political and economic treatment of the people who are not destined to be in that half a billion or so human beings with the resources and luck to survive the new world we are leaving for future generations.  Let us pray they will be brave.

Some of my outrage is personal, my partner is Asian American my family is her family and she and me have been and could easily become targets of racism and of course, she is a potential target every day for the slings and arrows and micro aggressions minority folk and women of all flesh tones live with.  My dad being gay and myself being eccentric and quaintly queer as well  weaves strong bonds and feelings to these folk and I fear for those among these who may be hurt  or worse who may once again be forced to hide.  Let us fall to our knees and pray:  Dear Heavenly Father, hallowed be thy name.  Thy kingdom come……..Forgive us our trespass as we forgive those who trespass against us……

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